EDIT: I never said I want kids to use them or that I’m not already on my passage of healing. Stop projecting your insecurities and trauma onto me!
I see a lot of people talking about never having kids bc it’s a big responsibility, they want to live their life since their childhood and teenage hood was taken away from them or because they don’t want to accidentally traumatize their children.
But I genially want kids. I always been like this. My abusive mother thought that this wish will disappear after she made me a caregiver for my two little sisters, but it didn’t work.
I want children so much, so I can give them the happy childhood I never had. I feel like being a kind nurturing mother would heal smth inside of me that no amount of therapy can.
It’s really my motivation to be a better person, notice and work on all of the anger issues I picked up after my mother. I learned so many things, because I want my future children to grow up happy.
I don’t see anyone else ever talking about it and feels like nowadays everyone hates children what makes me very sad.