Hello guys,
Since i am awakening and i am getting in touch with my anger over how people have treated me in the past. Just today i got reminded on how pressured i felt to have sex with one guy and i regret i did. I feel so angry at him for primarily thinking about his needs and pleasure. At that time i did not know better and i couldnt mark my boundaries. How do you guys deal with memories where your sexual boundaries were violated? I have a tendency to blame myself instead of another person and i need a little bit help with that. Thank you ❤️🙏
Oh, I'm not good with those memories, but I don't blame myself. I focus really hard on what I can learn from it and what I'll do differently next time, you know? NOT to victimblame, but to give me a sense of agency. Thoughts will go like this:
"I don't EVER want to experience this again!! Oh, but if I try to practice setting boundaries a lot I will be better at scaring dangerous men off in the beginning and attract healthy men instead, and the risk of ending in a similar situation will be smaller. I should read a book about boundaries and get started!"
That's literally my thought-process lol. I think it gives me hope to focus on the future, if that makes sense?