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I once had a conversation with a head of year (also the safeguarding officer) at school a few weeks into being removed from home and they said exactly that. How come so many bad things have happened to one person? I felt so invalidated and embarassed at the same time that I shut down. I have always found it difficult to talk about what happened and still do, today. I feel humiliated and I don't want anybody to pity me or even acknowledge that I'm fucked up. I want to be like other people who have their shit together. I fear I will never be able to live a normal life, my brain feels permanently changed. The anxiety is embarrassing and I don't know how to express it. I always end up saying something stupid or trying so hard to present normally that I invalidate myself.
It's humiliating.