as a kid i always felt neglected, as i grew up this feeling never went away, in fact it always grew. it's so painful.. i don't know how to deal with the feel of deprivation.. i constantly feel like i'm trying to hide and pray to disappear so i won't have to deal with someone else being praised. I do not seek attention at all,nor do i seek praise , i just always felt like my brothers are better than me. also my parents are primitive so they always reminded me that i'm a girl and i have to do stuff while my brothers don't. (cleaning, cooking, achieving, taking care of younger brother, can't go out with friends, they put my big brother on a pedestal... and a million more things) i know that the neglect i felt as a child effects me by wanting to constantly be alone. but the feeling of never being enough to anyone, not only family but friends, relationship, even at work.. i feel so alone and i don't want to. i feel lost when i feel neglect and i would like to change it. do you guys have some tips? ideas? maybe even books recommendations? thank you so much and sorry if i have spelling issues, english isn't my first language.. feel free to correct me respectfully.
The trauma caused by childhood emotional neglect is just as real as trauma from other causes. "Running on Empty" is a wonderful book that helped me to understand the impact of childhood emotional neglect and how to recover from it. Here's a link to the author's page about the book:
https://drjonicewebb.com/the-book/